April 9, 2013

My Train of Thought Derailed.

**WOW. I went to write a new blog and found this one in my drafts. So, since I made the effort to write it...I will now make the effort to post it. I obvs didnt finish it but so what. My OCD Virgo self cannot have it in my 'Drafts'. Then, I'm going to start a new one cuz I have thoughts!!!! ;) And with that....here ya go.**

I wonder why some days I feel skinny and other days I feel like two pigs fighting under a blanket.  Admittedly, I have gained weight...about 20 pounds. I'm pretty certain that my Thyroid medication isn't working.  That and the fact that I've been holed up for 7 months because of winter.  Oh, and the fact that I love donuts.  But, anyway, I think I'm going to try a natural thyroid supplement and take a break from the synthetic ones.  See how that goes.  Otherwise...I'm going to stop taking my insulin and then I'll lose weight.

Just kidding.

Not really.

Yes, I am.

Kinda.

I don't think I've ever been in love until now.  Seriously.  I thought I was, don't get me wrong.  2 years ago, I would have told you that I had three major loves in my life.  Today I will tell you I've only had one.  I can honestly say that I have never been in love like this.  Before..it was all about me.  Now..it's all about him.  I'm making life changes...for him.  He made them for me...now it's my turn.

We're moving to Tennessee.  That's our plan.   Our new plan.

I'm trying to wrap my head around our new plan. I'm trying to stay positive.  Trying to stay hopeful.  I know everything will work out. It always does for me.  I'm a gypsy.  A rover.  An adventurer on the highway of life.  AND I'm the only ten I see. 

Sorry.

Had to.

Lame.

I hope Tennessee isn't lame. 



I want a doormat that either says 'Go Away', 'My Neighbor Has Better Stuff' or 'Nice Underwear'. Maybe I will get one for my next new house.

 I just said 'Herro' to someone.  Seriously.  What is wrong with me?  I wanted to say 'Hello' and 'How are you?' at the same time.  Instead I sounded like a little Chinee woman.  OMG. 

It's 75 degrees today. I'm shocked and amazed and SO happy!  I see the sun, feel the sun and have a slight hope that spring has sprung!  Except...bi-polar NY is going to be back in the 50's for the rest of the week.  WTH? 

I'm so over NY.  It's definitely not like it was when I was young.  This was an awesome place to grow up.  I had the most amazing childhood.  Back then you could wander in the woods.  Today you get ticks.  Back then you could trek to the swimming hole and have fun.  Today you get arrested for trespassing.  Back then you could ice skate at the pond all day with your BFF.  Today the pond is overgrown and neglected.  Back then you could stay out til dark, walk home alone and feel safe.  Today you are afraid you'll get shot, attacked by a fischer cat or hit by a car. Back then you would see the fresh new grass sprout through the snow, became overwhelming happy because you just KNEW spring was almost there.  Today there is no spring.  It's cold or it's hot. The end. Back then your friends were your friends and you knew it. Today you no longer know those people.

It's just not the same.  I guess it makes sense because everything changes.

People. 

Towns.

Attitudes. 

I have changed.



For instance, I'm pretty sure I know how to kill someone and get away with it after watching the ID channel all winter.  I also know how to avoid getting murdered or raped thanks to the same channel.  I now know it's not a good idea to shovel snow in rainboots or Uggs.  Unless you want to shovel skate...and that shits not fun.   I know that 'being a strong woman' and 'being a rude bitch' are two different things.